time to grow up

i'll be moving on and leave this blog for another that is more 'matured'(at least i think it is). not sure whether i want it to be private or open(not gonna make any difference,not that anyone reads my ramblings)still,moving on sounds kinda good now.so bye

Succumbd to peer pressure

This update is to hold of the naggers(yes its an 'a', not typo) off for awhile. Must have ran out of things to read. to be honest there aint that many ppl who r gonna read this(i'm a realist,u think i dunno?) but to those who do here u r and to the naggers,i appreciate ur concern but seriously less time going out wit u ppl will mean more time for the blog so take one or the other.

I have made(well technically,its assembled but gimme credit would ya?) a sofa. mom bought it from ipoh and it took the company a month and a half to transport to manufacture the parts and transport them here,my house,glenmarie,shah alam,selangor not thailand,vietnam,or even japan. glenmarie,less than 300kms(i think) away from ipoh. somehow i reckon i can walk that distance within a month.of course,to be fair they had to manufacture it,but come on............a month and a half?!for the parts of a sofa?those parts must be really complicated to make or seriously that company is in need of more workers(mustve laid them off due to the current economic situation). ok,back to me making (assembling) the sofa. the parts reach the house around nine-ish in the morning(please bare in mind i came home at 5-ish after watching cpl finals).i was drowsy,i was lazy and i had to sign papers,fine,i did just that. it came in a a square-ish box.after signing i realised,what kind of sofa comes in square-ish box?goddamit,must be one of those diys,i thought.then i askd the guy6,ure just gonna leave it there?he replied,my job is just to transport it here.so i calld my mom saying it came in a box and the guy is only the transporter(sounds cool kan,like the movie).i have no idea whats up with her today(actually i do,but not very polite to say it here,kinda obvious,every girl has it) but she was raising her voice as if i did sumthing wrong. being drowsy at the time(maybe thats y shes angry)i only heard can u do it,if cannot i'll get sumone to do it,which i have to say is repeated a number of times and just to end the conversation i said yes.and there i was,armd a set of tools and my skinny bod all ready for work(this was kinda late at night).opend the box and i saw.....cushion thingies,screws,bolts, a couple of weird things i have no idea what they r.all this didnt bother me cos i knew i could do this(i was the handyman back at the oldhouse,mom bought alot and i mean alot from ikea)but theres one thing that aint there,the instructions. again,too lazy to whine so i just did what my brain tells me to,this goes here,that goes there and voila...i give u.. a sofa(i'm sure not gonna sit on it).

seriously,another one tomorrow cos i need to have a loooooooooooooong bath.

Selangor V kelantan

It was a weird proposition.thats what i thought when razi said lets go to watch tomorrows final between kelantan and selangor.i nvr knew there was a match goin on the night after(nvr really read the malaysian sports sect).we made jokes about it of course seeing that its what we do most of the time(make fun of everyone and everything with the exception of sheikh of course) and the thing died out. the next day(or that afternoon to be exact,we hangd out till 3 am i think),had a call from fariq asking whether i wantd to go and watch the game(honestly,i thought they were joking about it earlier). being a 'patriot',i said yes.so at about 5,fariq came over(we carpool alot these days,troubling times) and seeing that razi was 'busy' we head off to bj to buy tics. i kid u not,by the time we got to bj,all we can see was red(kelantan supporters were there early).at that point we were a lil bit scared cos looking at the amount of ppl,the tics might have sold out.this kinda embarassd me a bit cos dad told me beforehand it could be a full stadium and i replied "what r the chances of an interstate match in malaysia having a full stadium?".we didnt have much trouble though getting the tics cos there were still loads of em when we got to the tic booth(barely anyone was buying).we then head over to razis where we chilld for a bit b4 getting on the lrt to bj(we were driven to the lrt sttn by icad in his matrix,its a big car,fits 9). by the time we got into the stadium,it was at full capacity with the exception of a couple of sects which were emptied due to security reasons. it was easy to choose which side to support cos i was the only 1(i think) with ties to kelantan so selangor it was(i was torn cos of that).bought headbands with selangor on em(2 bucks a piece) before getting in and head straight up to the top stands(we know the lower ones would be full,we can see em).like i said b4,it was at full capacity and we were lucky to even get seats(which we stood on to get a clearer view).the whole 90 mins of the game,we were standing up,shouting and screaming at every player and official on the field. wasnt a great match,just loved the adrenaline.anyway,we had out at full time cos we(well,the other 2,not me) had a game to watch,they were manu fans before selangor fans.

kinda rare seeing me do another one in less than a day.its one of those stay in days(days which i choose to stay in to rejuvenate after a tiring period of outings,also helps save money for the next outing period) so i guess i might as well do one.not sure when the next one will be up but could be awhile.to those who keep reading,seriously,i appreciate it. food blog could get deleted when i have the energy.till then

Ex-schoolmate,Herbalife,checkups,free passes

Had dinner with an ex primary schoolmate.of course it wasnt a candlelight dinner or anything,just a simple 'soupy' dinner(those familiar with sect 7 would probably know straight away,if u aint 1,tough luck).and no,it wasnt just the 2 of us,i brought along a friend and so did she.i had my reasons of course mainly that i have no knowledge of the existence of unisel and the way there,so i brought along a friend who i thought knew the way.he didnt of course which resulted in my slow driving(funny how little roadsigns show where unisel is,doesnt change much,i'm a slow driver anyway).she brought along a housemate(luckily not all,she has 14 of those).somewhat regrettd bringing a friend along since she was telling stories(a lot of em and some r kinda embrassing).didnt mind that much cos this particular friend of mine knows he'll be crucified if he tells anyone. felt a bit guilty since both of em got papers comin the next day and we're here lengthening their dinner.anyway,by the end of dinner,as gentlemen(haha),we sent them back to their rentd houseand i promise u,its the biggest house rentd by students that i have ever seen.its 3 storeys tall.its even bigger than my house,its..wow!having said that,i didnt take into account the fact that 15 girls r living under it until i got to my senses.overall,not a bad dinner.

I am now on herbalife.y?i wanna get buff(dreams of the sons in my family). Went to a booth set up by a friend whose gf's mom gave the explanation.they took my height,weight and other stuff to see how 'ideal' my body is.heres a pic of it.the ones with numbers in the goal column(is this right?) r the thing i should aim for.obviously i dont need anyone to measure my weight just to tell me i'm underweight(i know that,i look in the mirror every morning).apparently i've gone down both in weight and height(used to be 65 and somewhere closer to 180,who cares anyway).everything else is fine i guess,just need to gain at least 8 kilos(my goal in 3 months).something worth bragging is my basal metabolic age which is 17.so,a 70 years old mindset in a body with a metabolic age of 17.now i know how benjamin button feels like. didnt need much of a nudge since i already decided early on i'm gonna take it(not sure whether cos its really good or just to help out a friend). just started taking it this morning after being given lessons on how to do it the other night.as a wannabe realist,i know the results wont show immediately but owh how i wish it would hurry up.thats that.

below my friends booth,NKF(i reckon its national kidney foundation) were giving out checkups. initially u have to pay rm2 but close to the end it was free(probably why we went for it). doubt if i take a pic of it anyone can read the tiny writings so i'll just type the summary of it.my bmi is in the normal range(although i had an argument with a friend what normal is just today,she thinks its above 20-25,me,18.5-24.9).low possibilities of high blood pressure,hypertension,high cholestrol(can a skinny guy get this?) and someother stuff i have no idea how to spell.i always thought my blood pressure would be low since i lost a lot of blood back in 2nd form when some idiot split my head into 2(not literally speaking).not the case though.an auntie gave me some advice that r quiet common,more excercise,stop inhaling 'dangerous' substance,avoid oily foods,those kinda stuff.heard those before.what r the chances i'll listen to it?

yesterday...i...went...to...see...xmen origins:wolverine.apparently its a preview.saw it in gold class and the best bit is its free(dont think i can afford it if it wasnt).this was at gsc signature,the gardens(i know,wow right?)the seats are electricly controlled,there was a pillow and a blanket,free drinks and snacks(is this how rich ppl watch the movies?).the movie itself was ok laa,nothing great,could have been better.having said that,i did have a hard time resisting the temptation of snoozing throught it(i was tired but since there might not be another free gold class ticket ever,i persisted).keeping the movie pass,would probably look nice on my wall.probably.

was to write another one but i think this is long enough.i'll do another soon.

Damn you and other stuff

Yup,one of those rare updates.Although having access to the internet,i find myself not blogging for some odd reason.i stated in one of my earlier ones(back in the days when it was one a day) that this could just be a phase,maybe its nearing its end,hope not,i kinda like like writing random stuff.

I dont blog about football that often but i'm going to since this annoys me a hell of a lot. I have a friend and i think he could be the worst predictor ever which is good. I was in Kk for the weekend(obw) and there was this huge game that saturday night/sunday morning. i tried avoiding asking this particular friend of mine who was gonna win the game all day but some joker just had to ask.and his answer was a huge blow to my hopes of silverware.he said arsenal would win.and we didnt(god damn you).at half time it was 1 all and i left cos i know deep inside we're gonna lose.anyway,i had to get my revenge,so i asked who was gonna win the manu-everton game knowing that the person who asked about the arsenal-chelsea game was a manu fan.he said manu,i kid u not, i knew they would lose.most of those reading this would probably think its just luck that he guessd 2 games in a row wrong.well,heres an interesting fact,back in secondary school,i cannot recall him winning a single bet and he bets alot.some even asked him bout the results before betting.enough bout that,i'm moving on to sumthing else.

i was told that the stories i tell lack names so its sometimes hard to differentiate thetruth from lies.i try to avoid giving out names cos i do not want to embarass anyone unless of course ure a good friend in which case i would go all out(this is a lie).A great liar(no,he's not a politician,atleast not yet)once told me that the more details u put into ur words,the more believable they r.sounds about right.it makes sense doesnt it?nvr tried though,i'm very honest(yes,i am).

believe it or not,i am now giving lessons to my lil sis on a regular basis.mom asked me the other day whether i could help teach my sis every night(of course i argued every night isnt practical). i dont know bout other form 1s but how learning has changed since i was in school. there aint notes. no reading assignments, and barely any homework.no wonder her grades r somewhat average.maybe the school is trying for an unorthodox approach,let the kids have their own initiative to study.i dont know,i still think at that age and this time,kids like that need more and more work.imagine this,if mom wasnt to take the laptop away,my sis wouldve have been on myspace all day(no idea what she does on myspace,its her business anyway).i dont mind,its all part of being a big brother(bullying makes it worthwhile).

trying to do things a bit more differently.more random stuff since its easier to type that way whilst i'm sleepy.still looking for old schoolmates so if anyone out there knows anyone(u know what i mean)get in touch,unless of course u despise me.i'll blog again soon,very soon cos i feel like it.

The Car and what not

Its been more than a week since i inherited a car(i know its not a fortune but it is something nonetheless) .technically its not mine but it will be one day(hoping3......). by now u'll probably be wondering what kinda car i got.well for those who were thinking of old jags,ferraris,cadillacs and what not,well,sorry to burst ur bubble its an 80's mercedes(w116 280s merc to be exact) . it was ownd by my late grandfather and its been there even before i was born(duhh,80,i was born in 89). I just sent the car for a full service at a place recommendd by a friend. kinda impress with the condition of the car since one of the guys there said with a rating of 10,he gives my car a 7/6 which is kinda good since its an ancient.he also mentioned that my car being an 80's car is somewhat odd cos it has little or no rust(wohoo,credits to my late grandpa and uncle).the engine is in good condition despite its age(old things do last apparently).not gonna elaborate more on the car cos i dont know that much bout cars and this is only the start so i'll do another one on the car once done to satisfaction.i'll also put up a pic later on or maybe not...some ppl has no eye for old cars so putting up a pic might not be a very good idea.i remember a friend of mine came over and the first few sentences about the car that he said was "dude,mcm mane nak pick up chicks nie". of course replyin was easy(i'm not into girls who are materialistic to an extent that they'll reject me due to my car) but thats besides the point.like someone once told me,beauty is in the eye if the beholder. my taste for cars is an acquired one(probably from my uncle).what we had planned for the car was simple,keep as many stuff as original as possible.

Just today i was 'kindly' askd by a friend to update my blog(nvr realised someone actually read my blog,thanks to those who do).of course i wantd to be cocky and told her to get in line but somehow it seems rude and inappropriate.i'm beginning to think i'm a changed person(for better or worst is of course a personal opinion) these days cos i seem to hold back a lot more. a sign of maturity perhaps or maybe i'm just hallucinating and nothing really changed.i've started on some personal exercise(amazing isnt it?) and a friend has been telling me bout herbal life.apparently it makes fat ppl skinny and vice versa.i was wonderin how does that work.and the best part about it is that u dont have to do exercise(or so i was told)just take the damn thing and hey,presto chango(sounds suspicious to me).if anyone has any comments or what not please do gimme any,i wanna know more(getting con is very low on my list of things to do).if its an almost sure thing it'll work,then i might consider it(what else could u expect from the self proclaimd mr lazy). my lil brothers gonna be getting a gti(hopefully),i personally dont mind that much since everyone can drive it although i would 'paham2 sendiri' that he has the priority. the fact that i have rights to drive any car is enough to stop me from blowing up with dissatisfaction but thats a story for another day cos this is getting long.

Making bread

As the title says,i've made bread.i was talking to this girl the other night and suddenly had this urge to make bread for no apparent reason. so before i slept,i made a commitment to make bread the next day(today la).heres a pic of it..
doesnt look so great does it?dont tease me too much will ya,its a first). took me a couple of hours just to make normal bread(yeah,its just plain bread).i chose plain bread cos its relatively easy and it was my first time baking on my own. owh,ignore the staright deep cut my mom made when i asked her to test it and the crooked left(that was me poking it with a knife).it didnt turn out as i hoped and the bread didnt exactly 'raise'(wtv thats suppose to mean).although taste wise its alright(if u ignore the harden parts).my sister keeps nibbling on it as if it tastes nice although i told her to throw it away.if u havent figured out what its suppose to look like yet,well,its not ur fault,its mine.i was being too ambitious and it the result shows that.its a lot different from what its suppose to look like.heres my initial sketch of what i was hoping to bake.














way different aint it.not even a good sketch.i blame it on my niece.i was thinking of an animal bread when she kept shouting mickey mouse so i kinda shifted to that instead. another failure.someone once told me baking is harder than cooking and i guess shes right. dad seems to think i should spend time learning to cook more practical stuff like nasi goreng(which i already know how).i just wanted to give baking a try.sigh.next up is an amazing chocolate cake i've been craving for months.gotta find some stuff though,apparently its kinda hard to find unsalted butter. went to jj just now to get the ingredients and almost got confused with what they were selling.so many variations of flour sugar and what not.me typing this here is a sign that i might resign my other blog.2 blogs take too much time.might as well just add a food tab here.another abrupt ending.later.

financial crisis

if ure thinking that i'm talking bout the world financial crisis then ure wrong(unless of course its 'my' world ure talking bout,u know what i mean). Anyway,for the past few days,i've been spending a hell of a lot (i mean a HELL of a lot)to upgrade the old desktop at home.and now,not even halfway through the month,i've spent almost all my money(to be fair to me,my money is relatively low compared to ur average teenager).so i will most probably be limiting my social outings to weekends and spend the weekdays at home(i probably have enough seeing that i spend barely 10 bucks when i go out,well,most of the time).i've spent all the money gained from my previous 'business'(if u consider it a business that is,at least i do)my siblings(that can drive) seem to be taking advantage of my habit of filling up the tank everytime i take any of the car out.no,i aint got ocd or a perfectionist,i just dont like seeing the car low on fuel.despite the relatively low fuel prices,it still is a nuisance to fork out 30-50 bucks every now and then.on another less annoying matter,i've finally regaind my passion for blogging(sad,i know).hopefully it'll last slightly longer than before. getting rusty though,typing getting slow and material getting low. had an agreement with dad(finally). i am to do SATs this year and perhaps get in uni in 10. although achieving my goal of a looong holiday,i still have to study for SATs on my own. in all honesty,i cant be bothered but the reward at the end is somewhat tempting.although its not something i can achieve by getting excellent scores alone.i dont know,we'll just see how it goes.i'll probably start 'studying' by next month,thinking of sumthing around 4-8 hours a day(excessive ,i know).it'll probably do,i aint no genius,i know where i stand although feels like an idiot sumtimes. one of my many definitions of an idiot is someone who knows their strengths but too lazy to nurture them.an idiot.although i cant say its better to be dumb than be an 'idiot'. starting to get really comfy with the wireless keyboard and mouse(one of my many 'money well spent' moments...haaa).just to be able to lay on my bed and do what ever is such a good feeling.next one up is a projector(thinking of bringing the ps3 in the room) although there might be a problem with the very limited space and the fact that my walls are now decorated(got my old pictures on the wall,a thing i pick up back in secondary school).i'll think about it more.more importantly is a webcam(by the time i bought the speakers,a huge whole was burning in the wallet).syaz has been pestering me to get one for awhile and since my sister is gonna be flying off to aussie,she might wanna contact us,dad seems happy with the idea.apparently good webcams can set me back by rm200(my definition of good of course).god dammuit,just remembered,gotta by books for SATs,dont know how much that'll cost me,probably not much,they're just books.although i have spoken to someone bout it,she says its about 100(why is knowledge so expensive these days). rihanna coming up soon.not sure whether i wanna go or not.got the tics but somehow not that interested anymore.if anyones reading this(which somehow sounds very doubtful) and is somewhat interested in going but couldnt get a tic,gove me a ring/nudge/miss call/wtv although i aint promising anything.owh dear,this looks long.i'll leave it at that for the moment.might continue tomorrow.till then

Almost Dead

almost dead.thats how i'd sum up my blog but who gives a damn anyway(at least i didnt up until now).anyway,gonna start blogging again cos lately i found myself wit so much time.gonna be going back to my old blogging habits ,unnecessarily long and pointless.not sure whether i'll be doing it on a daily basis though.some ppl seem to treat their blogs like a diary(err,not my kinda thing to do to be honest)with daily short entries,nvr like reading those kinda blogs(as if i read any*sigh*). so if anyone who still drops by the blog every now and then,thanks?

Open house and updates

Its been awhile since i last bloggd,entirely my fault, too occupied with everything else(to be honest its more to laziness).had my open house last weekend,loads of family, neighbours we never met and friends came over.we had a cater came over to provide the food.there was kuew teow goreng, sotong kangkung,tauhu bakar,ais kacang and the highlight was the 6 lambs we had on the grill(we estimated 500 ppl,reckon there was more).owh,mom also had her friends cookd nasi dagang which to me was really good(reminds me of kelantan). Thanks to those who came and to those who cant make it,dont worry,theres always some other year(if i'm here that is). Not gonna go into details cos i'm not really in the mood to blog but i will put a picture up(probbly stole it from icad or que) sometime soon.

Before the open house,dad made me go around and invite the neighbours all on my own(parents,always make their children do what they cant be botherd to do). I didnt mind really, I kinda like meeting ppl(done a bit of random talks to strangers in my life). Most of the neighbours are actually really friendly(or maybe it was me,nah,cant be)some even invited me in but i didnt have time except for one which i didnt decline since its the last house for that night.i did however get annoyd sometimes,not by the neighbours but by their maids. some of em were just rude.come on,do i look like a salesman or a thief?and not only that,cant some of u learn bahasa or english?if u couldnt speak either one,why did u even bother come to my country!grrr!!
not that i have anything against maids,i just have sumthing against rude individuals who happend to be maids.a bit of courtesy would be nice and i did try very hard not to be rude. did feel kinda bad though cos i did the invites during the night,not really appropriate.

i will be getting a new hp.my lil sis lost hers and dad doesnt want to buy her a new one but agrees that she needs one.sooo,she will be havingmy hp and i'll get a new one.i'm thinking of lg secret or samsung omnia but i'm leaning towards the former.getting lazy,i'll update this one in a bit or just do a new one later.

Family

Just got back from spending a week in Kelantan. as always its a very nice place to get something to eat but other than that,theres nothing much not even a cinema(kelantanese probably got better things to do). thistime around i realized alot of stuff about kelantan.for one, the drivers are sooooooooo slow.i reckon if i was to follow their way of driving,i'd average 40km/h. mom says kelantanese have a very slack way of living,they are very slow(talking bout common kelantanese,bear in mind there are always others that arent lazy),maybe thats why kelantan is still somewhat rural,i dont know,just my opinion.anyway,like i said,kelantan is all about food. my fave was sumthing called colek(excuse the spelling).its made up of fruits,vegs,chicken,seafood,other weird and not so weird ingredients cut into small pieces and most importantly the sauce.the best so far i had was the one near cempaka(again,excuse the spelling),if ever ure around the area,make sure u drop by the place and get a bite,its heavenly. owh,this is way off what i wanted to say.my family(on my dads side) has a website.its not fully functional yet but we reckon with the help of a few tech geeks in the family(owh yes,we got a couple of those..no,aint me)it'll be an amazing website.
this is the url..
http://www.tokmat.terataimaya.com/

dont remind me,at this current moment,my name aint on it yet but just u wait.i'm gonna give the admins a piece of my mind.and since i aint got much else to do,might be a good idea to lend a hand and update/upgrade the website.got this cool feeling knowing that ur family has a website.woah!

Rebellious

you insist on doing this,
But i want to do that,
Honestly,you are making me pissed,
Anymore,
I'll hit you with a baseball bat,
And I'm not gonna miss.

I really dont know why,
we keep on this fight,
If you're trying to show me the light,
Please bare in mind,
Your so called 'light',
Aint always right.

I know,
I'm immature,
With a heart thats no longer pure,
Not even sure if there is a cure,
But seriously,
This is such a bore.

As time ticks,
the pressure builds up,
I might soon breakdown,
So before I suddenly click,
Cant you just let me pick?

Probably not,
You're just as i thought,
All the while i fought,
Shouldve just waited and rot.

Again,has nothing to do with reality,just random stuff

Painful Truth

I'm going to come clean,
I know I'm only nineteen,
So after saying this
I'll leave this scene.

Just strings of words,
making little or no sense,
yet our relations might become tense,
In all honesty,
I never did have a chance.

My real intention,
was to make a confession,
I have a crush on you,
now, do I have your attention?

Its not the hair,
Or the skin thats fair,
Or the eyes that mesmerize,
Honestly i dont care.

You never were hot,
At least thats what i thought,
Yet you stand out,
Among all the lot.

its the personality,
the fact that you are happy and free,
and the way you laugh with a glee,
it just drives me crazy

this i know is going no where,
time was never there,
we'll never be a pair,
its not like you would ever care.

to me,
You were somewhat cold,
So please return what you have stole,
For its no longer whole,
And the fate that would unfold,
I already know,
Your hand,
Was never meant for me to hold.

Just to be clear,it has nothing to do with reality(dont u get any ideas now)

I'm Back!

Mustve been months since i last updated my blog. wanna know whose fault it is? friends who did nothing but ask me out (to be fair,its my fault as well for agreeing to join em). for the last couple of months,i went out almost on a daily basis(just imagine the fuel cost..it hurts soooo bad) waking up late and coming back 'early' has been a norm (but not for long though,dont really have the financial backings to continue).owh,before i forget,kinda like to say i'm sorry to those who i didnt have the chance to reply on msn,sorry dudes,i might be 'online' but i aint there(dont tell me i'm wasting energy,i aint,i was downloading). Still wanna keep my word to jing and janet, i'll end here

My 'Clever' Minister

Read in the news today:

I would like to stress that public transport and school bus operators are not affected by the fuel hike because they are entitled to diesel at RM1.43 per litre and they are given fleet cards. There is no reason why they should increase their fares as announced by the bus operators association today,” he told reporters Friday after attending Umno retreat at a hotel here.

Entrepreneur Development Minister Datuk Noh Omar

I wish to think this was a misquote on the reporters part or a mistake made by that minister which hopefully would be corrected sometime in the near future.why?cos err...i'm convinced at the moment that a mas minister would know better than to think that public transport fares wont go up just because they give the same subsidies as before to public transport. They think too much on the busses,trains,wtv that they forgot the drivers,the ticket sellers and anyone who has anything to do with public transport.Those ppl are also hit by the increase in fuel prices,i know a bus driver and he has his own car,i doubt the guy get the same subsidies for his own car. food prices are going up and will continue to go up(i think) as fuel prices go up. so these ppl will have to increase their spending,whether they have the extra money or not,they'll probably ask for higher wages so that feeds into the rising cost of public transport.If that minister truly believes what he said well...i rather not say it..haha

Lie

I've finally found time to update my blog. Not gonna be long though cos i'm heading off to the library after this,i am in need of work and thats the only place i can think of which gives me the right atmosphere to work in.

Anyway,lie. About a week ago i got into a discussion with a group of very sophisticated ppl(i'm not part of the group,i was there by chance) and they were talking bout whether lying is just simply wrong.to start of,the scene given was u know your friends gf(using the idea that the friend is a guy seeing that i'm kinda lazy to type both) is cheating on ur friend,so what do you do?i thought the question wasnt really structurd right for the topic,if ur friend doesnt ask u,then ure not telling him anything so its not lying and if ure the one telling that friend of yours that his couple is cheating,it aint lying either.nvrthe less,it was a spontaneous question and i did understood what the guy was trying to say,what would i do if my friend came to me to asking whether i know his couple was cheating.i said early on that if my friend askd and i knew,i'd say it as it is witout holding back cos the act of him asking gives me the hint that he's suspicious of his gf (duhhhh) or even he couldve known it.i didnt agree that lying would be a better option cos even if it does give him a bit of happiness(up to the point that he finds out) that happiness is based on a lie(i didnt say that,someone else did). that got me thinking on a bigger scale,what if those conspiracy theories are true and we're actually living a lie which we see as true. see it this way,theres so many religions out there in the world,how do we know which one is right or wrong.they all could be right up to a point but which one would be right all the way till the end( not gonna talk much about it cos my knowledge is limited on that kinda stuff).

we were then given another situation.what if we know our friend is cheating on his gf and his gf came and ask us about it?its a good question cos its a proof of how u treat ppl differently. if my friend was the one beeinf cheated at and i knew,i'd tell him straight to his face a.s.a.p but when my friend does the cheating,i have doubts i'll ever tell his gf about it. at that moment,i can only figure 3 things to do.
be truthful,
tell her knowing that ure doing the 'right' thing but lose a friend and possible secrets in the future that other ppl might tell me but couldnt do so cos i dont lie.
tell a lie,
feel a bit guilty but it'll pass seeing that i have stml(short term memory loss) and everyones happy(until she find out by herself of course)
not say anything
might give a hint of yes but she keeps on thinking witout knowing for sure.everyones happy
my choice was obvious,i'd lie.it was either that or say i didnt know or keep silent which is almost like a yes.think of it this way,if ure friend didnt cheat,u'd say no in a heartbeat but if he did,u said u didnt know. see the difference?so i'd just lie.i can live wit the guilt but it does seems un 'fair' that u'd allow someone else to live a lie but not ur friend.as a person dubbed with having a heart of stone,i didnt care that much.

someone in the group said she thinks lying doesnt really angers a person,its the fact that u did something wrong.what she said to us was implying that lying to cover up sumthig u did wrong is not wrong..i think. her example was u cheat,u lied to ur gf and u were found out,she's angry cos u cheated not cos u lied.some of us gave replies along the line that in court,if u pleaded guilty,u'd get a lighter sentence than if u pleaded not guilty and was found guilty showing that lying is kinda wrong. i gave an example of a doctor that gives a patient 6 months to live when the patient is just fine. charles(who apparently joined the group this term,it shows,didnt say much during the discussion) thought i said that a doctor cant make mistakes,luckily enough someone put it into an easier form(hmm..i hate this guy,i'm gonna tell him he has 6 months to live).it does imply that lying is wrong.she argued however that lying is lying int he first case was more of covering sumthing up where as in my case its the main thing. the guy in front of us said sumthing bout the degree of lying.he said its alright to lie in some cases.his example was if u just found out ure friends mom was diagnosed with cancer and ure friend(who didnt knew) came to ask u if everythings alright just before his exams,u'd lie to him and say yeah and tell him after his exams.

during supper,charles asked me what i think about the lying.and i remembered and analogy that i once heard back in 02.consider a pen.u can poke someones eye with it or u can write sweet poetry with it.its not the pens fault that u poke someones eye with it.(TJ used to say this and somehow it sticks in my head now) and i told him thats what i think of a lie. its a 'thing' which right or wrong depends on how u use it.of course,theres always the religion issue.not gonna say much except that i think its the variation of interpretations.

a boring entry,i know,probably cos i;m getting boring.today was supposed to be the day i go out shopping but i might just have to move it to tomorrow seeing that i'm not in the mood.weekday shopping is kinda nice ,not that many ppl.no,i aint a shopaholic,i just errr..outgrow my clothes quickly..nothing wrong with being 19 and still growing.till i get the incentive to type again.ta

Renovations

A few weeks ago,a friend of mine(a blogger herself) told me that her relatives 'invaded' her blog and that she's gonna 'privatise' her blog. I actually understood her actions. My blog for instance,is one of those things i dont mind friends or random strangers read but when it comes to relatives its like..woah there...especialy if its my dad and seeing that he knows i have a blog it'll be a matter of time before he discovers this. so..i'm taking precautions. I'm gonna take a new approach for my blog be renaming it and changing the contents.i'll also be deleting the old ones,not because i'm ashamed of em(well,i am if my relatives read them) but more to the fact that its kinda private.so..ladies..gents..i give you..curiousity killed my time

Exam preparations

i'll be facing my final a-levels exams in a few weeks and i believe its time for me to allocate more time to my studies(what else could u expect from a person does loads of last minute stuff?) believe it or not is of course is a personal choice,regardless,i feel this is a thing i have to do (this really do not occur that often)so i'll try to keep my time spent on blogging at a minimal so expect little if no updating for the upcoming 2 months. i might be back in mas and start looking for work on the 27th june or a week later at most depending on my situation.i apologise to those who visit my blog expecting to read something new in the coming 2 months just to find nothing has change. byeee

Reply: kyd and pau, and sumthing else

i had a feeling(just a feeling) that when i wrote that entry a few days ago, there will always be people who have other views,ideas etc about it. some one even went as far(or near,depending on how u look at it) as to give a long comment which made the entry longer than it actually is. regardless,if ure reading this, i really appreciate ur thoughts and views on the matter. i really didnt want to do this reply in the first place but after thinking it through,i might as well just do it for a reason i dare not tell(i know what ure thinking,its ego,pride bla3,well think wtv u like, i'll just accept the fact that some ppl are so negatively minded..look whos talking).

this is gonna look unbalance seeing that i am the one holding the pen(the author of the blog laa) but there are truth in my words if not all of em are true(please do correct me if i'm wrong). Dr. Frank M. Sacks of Harvard Medical School's Channing Laboratory in his experiment which can be found in Aug. 7 issue of The Journal of the American Medical Association, has proven,i repeat PROVEN that eating meat can cause negative health effects which in other words is BAD. however, just because it is bad,does not mean that its no good. Meat and oxygen are just examples of how good things can be bad if u look at another angle.if one argues that cigs are always bad for you then how bout soft drinks or red meat?vehicles running on fuel if u think bout it,they have exhaust fumes that are dangerous to ppl and environment,if i used the same argument u used for second hand smokes, cars running on petrol and airplanes could actually be haram.

Almost if not everything in this world as we know it has its pros and cons. in the book the logic of life written by Tim Harford, he agrees with Von Neumann and Chris Ferguson among others that people act rationally when they do sumthing(i really enjoyed reading it,have ago if u have the time).based on this understanding, if people smoke then those ppl must have calculated(either conscious or unconsciously) that the pros out weigh the cons. i quote

danial syafiq said...
spot on fiqss. wanted to comment exactly the same thing. i mean wtf? whats the good point of smoking? come on, ill belanja the person who can at least come out with 3 plus sides of smoking. =/
21 April 2008 05:32

i am gonna give u ur 3 reasons(although there are more,i just wanna keep this brief) so u can belanje me when i get back unless of course its wrong.
1)Smoking lowers Parkinson's disease risk
Evan L. Thacker from Harvard School of Public Health and colleague reported in the March 6th issue of Neurology, compared to people who had never smoked and were considered to have "normal" Parkinson's disease risk, former smokers had a 22-percent lower risk of Parkinson's disease and current smokers had a 73-percent lower risk.
2)Reduces the risk of Breast Cancer
Jean-Sebastien Brunet, lead author of a study being published in the Journal of the National Cancer Institute, that the incidence of breast cancer was 54 percent lower among heavy smokers than among nonsmokers.
3)Less risk of Alzheimer
In an article in The Times of London (9/7/93), Dr. James Le Fanu provided an examination of the research on smoking and its apparent protective effect for certain diseases. Dr. Le Fanu stated unequivocally: "Smokers have a 50 per cent reduced risk of developing Alzheimer's--and the more smoked the greater the protection."
I have to point out that all these arent the opinion a 19 year old but opinions of established medical researchers in their own fields.

moving on to the point of whether it is makruh or haram. i have to say i just dont know.it could halal for all i know . its one of those things that u were told ever since u were young and u still believe to this day. i'm at the stage of my life where i like to question when it is in doubt .i'm still confuse though which is the right way to go, ok until its proven not ok,or not ok until proven ok..in this matter i would assume most ppl to say not ok until proven ok but in diff circumstances(eg court cases) if u think of it as innocent until proven guilty or guilty until proven innocent,i'll prob get a diff answer.

i really appreciate ur thoughts and views and i quote u kyd,who quoted the quran
Firman Allah s.w.t.: Allah menghalalkan bagi mereka segala yang baik dan mengharamkan bagi mereka yang buruk-buruk.
(Al-A'raf : 157)
i am not an Islamic scholar but i think it is safe for me to assume that most of us if not me alone, dont know to what extent is baik and buruk2,i have nvr heard that its been specified in the quran(do tell if it is).eg, most would say the act of killing is wrong but when its extended to killing as a result of defending ones life is it different?lets say he can defend himself witout killing the other person but still kills the other person?..what bout if he is able to defend himself witout killing the person but chooses to kill the person so that he wont be killd if ever he is caught of guard? theres so many different ways to look at sumthing so deciding whether its good or bad depends on how u look at it.

i have to stress now that if anyones a non smoker and reads this and wants to start smoking(dont think that'll ever happen,but just in case)please dont.i didnt write this to encourage ppl to smoke, just wntd to point out that there could be other views on it. however both me and the ppl i quote can be wrong,Einstein once said " If the facts dont fit the theory,change the facts". and please bear in mind,although i am giving proof of smokes can be good,it does have negative effects. but most ppl probably know what they are so no need to say a word. i'll try not to do another reply on this particular topic even if sumone writes(types) a 400 word essay comment underneath cos this is one of those things that can be dragd on and i prefer to do simple entries like my life and what i do. apologies to both kyd and pau for referring to their comments witout their consent. on that note,till i find something better and simpler to blog about,later

Smokes are Haram?

back in malaysia,i got a couple of friends who are some what anti-smokers(they dont say it out loud but we know they are) and are really confident that smoking is 'haram'(banned). just recently,i read a blog about someone who just read a 'fatwa' that states smoking is haram. a fatwa for those who didnt know is is a religious edict or a ruling on Islamic law issued by an Islamic scholar(yeah,i copied and paste) .

the argument given was the health issue(well one of the arguments). personally,i dont see how u can ban sumthing because it has health risk.just think bout it(if u have time to waste,that is),we could actually ban almost if not everything just on the basis that they're not good for ur health. too much oxygen aint good for ya.Pulmonary Oxygen Toxicity occurs when a person is exposed to high oxygen levels for over 16 hours in pressures of 0.5 bar or more. It occurs in progressive, overlapping phases. During the first phase, fluid floods into the tissues of the lung that are normally filled with air. Bleeding then occurs between the alveoli, destroying capillaries and epithelial cells. Tissues begin producing in an attempt to heal the area. This causes thickening and scarring of the lungs. (another copy and paste).i'll be doing alot of copy and paste for this one cos they're creditable data,and at the moment are facts.so since oxygen kills,why cant be ban it?owh yeah,i forgot,we need it to breath and if we dont,we die . even so,ppl could argue that its vital for our lives so it can be accepted.how bout eating meat? Meat causes the digestion to work hard and this is not efficient. To breakdown food in the body requires a process of burning oxygen which is called oxidation. Oxidation is a process in the body that results in the production of free radicals. Modern science, by the preponderance of the evidence, believes 80 per cent or more of the damage to the body is the result of free radicals. The more difficult digestion, as in the case of digesting meat, the more oxidation is required to breakdown foods. The more oxidation, the more free radicals are produced, which leads to free radical accumulation. Accumulation of free radicals is not considered healthy. so if eating meat is bad for you,why dont we ban it?we can live as vegetarians.

if ure sayin its not as bad as smoking,well the fact remains it still is bad and who dictates the degrees of bad(ness) at which one can issue a fatwa to ban it. and the fact remains that it is deemd haram by a fatwa,not the Quran or a Sunnah.a few things bout fatwa that most didnt know:

There is a binding rule that saves the fatwa pronouncements from creating judicial havoc, whether within a Muslim country or at the level of the Islamic world in general: it is unanimously agreed that a fatwa is only binding on its author.

individuals are free to accept them, but Islam recognizes that extenuating circumstances may prevent it.

i got a couple more but this is getting long so i'm trying to cut it short.some of the things i copy and paste could be wrong(correct me if it is and please do explain how they are wrong) but based on the first one,it implies to the guy who issued the fatwa not every muslim in the world and to be fair to him,he probably knows more than i do(he did argue using the Quran,but then again the interpretation of the Quran differ to some scholars) but i refuse to believe smokes are haram.

act i could type more bout it but i dont want to cos i'm somewhat in the middle in this issue. i know my arguments states that smokings arent haram but i'm not sayin its not bad either.i believe that we are givin a choice in the matter and neither are wrong or right.as with everything,they r good points on smoking but theyre also bad ones,so i'm gonna settle on personal choice rather than anything else. just cos a few ppl think dont like it doesnt mean everyone else has to.


but then again,i'm only 19,wtf do i know bout anything